why don't we hit restart and pause it at our favourite parts

Tuesday, March 03, 2009,6:25 AM

-Be Brave Audrey Chong

It's already tuesday, 030309. We're closer to 060309 every second. I'm sure everyone heard about this already,

Results for the 2008 GCE A-Level examination will be released on 6 March 2009 ( 2.30 pm ).

Grace and I received this piece of news at amk hub during lunch and we both went cold at that moment. We came up with four different options that we have if we got bad results. 1)retake As 2)go overseas 3)just get into whatever course in whatever uni that we can get into 4) commit suicide. Haha. Okay we were that crazy. So we shopped at fairprice and bought goodies to cheer ourselves up. What's better was that I saw stella and myself on i-weekly. Hahaha. Totally made me laugh! We were super puny la, but I still managed to see us, behind jiro george and raine :D That's how crazy we were, queueing up for seven and a half hours just to get their autograph and shake their hands! HAHA :D

Okay, I digressed quite a bit.

Anyway, to be very honest, I'm super scared! I got so scared that I lost appetite to eat on sunday. I got so scared that I had to suppress my tears at my grandparents house and in the car. I was so scared that I would suddenly feel so cold and my stomach would flip. All the bad scenarios and regrets start to make me feel panicky, which isn't a good feeling. You get what I mean.

Thank God for cell group on monday, seriously! :D I got distracted and while sharing I felt as though As weren't that important afterall. God's most important. I want to learn to thank God for whatever results I'll be getting, good or bad. I have to learn to trust in God. Really really trust him completely and not just trusting him for one moment then the next moment I get so cold again. I really really pray that my heart will be strong enough to accept whatever results I get, to thank God for it all because everything I have belongs to Him. It's so hard you know. It's such a struggle. I hate it when my faith wavers, when I feel as though I haven't surrendered it all into His hands. I don't like feeling scared.

Anyway, really wanna thank God again for making me sooooooo extremely tired every night and I'll just doze off the moment my head hits my pillow. I know some people have trouble sleeping. I really pray that they'll stop worrying. I know worrying won't help to improve my grades. Worrying won't change anything. Worrying is basically pointless and I'll get wrinkles early if I worry excessively. For now, I pray for a thankful heart and peaceful mind.

Stop worrying friends.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Thank you God for this promise.

kkkkkkkkk I really need my sleep. Goodnight!