why don't we hit restart and pause it at our favourite parts

Friday, February 29, 2008,10:47 PM

I thought I could remain positive,
I thought I could handle it well,
I thought things would have been better.
I think I'm so foolish.
I think I'm a loser.
I think I'm such a rubbishy person who should just shut up & go die.
I think if I see my seniors I'll just burst into tears.
Anyway thanks to those who msged me, thanks thanks thanks.

I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust whose heart is right
):

aiyahhh STOP IT LAH.

Sunday, February 24, 2008,5:51 AM

It's sunday once again, which means monday's just a couple of hours away. I reject monday blues, reject, reject, reject. So even though this week has been really sucky to the core, I'm still going to trust in God's unfailing love. I believe if it's God's plan for me to go through all these sucky moments (class, cca, family, friends, whatever it may be), I want to learn to smile at all these unhappy things because I know God wants to teach me something. Honestly, week 8 has been one of the worse weeks for me ever since school started, lots of ups & downs, happy & depressing moments. Sometimes I so wanna scream & cry out loud because it doesn't feel good at all keeping stuffs to yourself, & yesterday I just realised that there are some people around me who are nice enough to hear me whine a bit. Thanks sue anne! (: I'm going to do exactly what you told me. Peacemaking is important! I want to let mercy triump over judgement. I want a heart of compassion. I want to see the good side of others.

Fill my heart & make it clean,
open up my eyes to the things unseen,
show me how to love like you have loved me.

Conflicts, be gone!
Let's be SMILEY SMILEYYYY :D

Time to be a good girl now audrey, spend more time with God & He will make my paths straight. Focus. Focus. Focus now.

And Lord, we want to lift Your name on high
And Lord, we want to thank You For the works You've done in our lives
And Lord, we trust in Your unfailing love
For You alone are God eternal
Throughout earth and heaven above

<3 goes out to cellobass!

Have a good week ahead everyone! :D

Thursday, February 21, 2008,8:23 AM

HELLO! (: I'm alive! Haha, I know I haven't been blogging but ever since cny holidays ended, life has been hectic. Very very hectic. Thou shalt summarise okay..

CELLOBASS IS LOVE!!! Posting results were out this week and sadly our juniors had to leave us but thank God patrick & lichen made it through. I was jumping for joy when patrick told me he made it through, & lichen's case was totally classic (i quote sue anne). So much tears & joy in a day.

Photo taken on tues @ woodlands, cip performance. It was fun I must say. Even though the preparation part sucks a lot a lot, okayyy I admit, I was stress. Thanks Chong Kahyan! I really need an outlet to whineee & you totally made me laugh out loud when i told you about the joson-yunhao-patrick thing! Your laughter is so contagious! Sometimes I wonder why my mood fluctuates so quickly.. for instance, that day.. I was super high till something happened, then I was totally quiet for quite some time, then when I got home my parents were so super sweet to me, then the next moment I started blasting my bro off for annoying me with his P&C questions.. Haha, you get the idea? Nvmd. Big girls don't cry. I won't let the magpies feed on my sorrow.

I love my juniors!! I really really think we bonded quite a lot during the entire cip preparation, it's like, I'm seeing them almost every day, reminds me of intensive pracs for syf (: Ahhhhh cip was really memorable, even though miss chong kept making me tense & stress & nervous & everything bad. I couldn't even enjoy my orange bowl (thanks hui chi!!!). The makeup part was funny too, I forced shenghui to go to the toilet with me, hahaha, we look like horrible pigs! Kap after that and I got home at 12am. Wowww! But it was funnn okay!! <3

CHINGAYYY :D It was alright, especially the second day. Super thankful that danhong, dongxin, shanly & shangfei's group was next to mine so I was crapping with them. HELLO, eric is so much cooler okay & my GIC is so doesn't look like chen yi ru please!!! More like zach lim. I really enjoyed the second day with jessmine, hui fen (who has an identical twin hui fang & they kept confusing me! haha) & dionne! (: Really nice to have them in my group, because they're the only un-dao ones! Haha. My sector was blasting super loud music, my ears were dyingggg but those music played, were good music, so it's okay! :D Oh yah, I think I enjoyed the last part where Duqian came over to my side & did the byebye thing with me. We were doing the cellobass byebye style lah & some other stupid stuffs too like "boy boy! byebye!". Spastic can?! But cool!!! Some pple came over to take photo with us too & even high fived us! :D

Really enjoyed this experience with duqian, stela & sijia (twinnie! I haven't uploaded the pic I took with you). I tell you, it was soooo horrible handling the crowd!! & I saw the worse side of singaporeans too. Hahaha but some weirdos were really funny lah. Esp the guy who climbed the tree and I had to tell him to come down but he refused. I think I was quite lucky, stella's one was the worse I think. Mine no kick lah, hahaha. I was running with Duqian & me, being so blind, failed to see the barricade & I tripped over & knocked my arm & knees. Super painful can! Haha, & I fell right in front of shangfei, danhong, shanly. Embarrassing! Haha :D & I really love those big balloons.

Presenting cc21 :D My group mates are quite nice, and I made new friends too!!! 3 of them! :D I wouldn't have survived without them. & thanks a lot for helping me during the first night when I kept whining because it was ridiculous to be at our barricade when there wasn't any crowd at all. Thanks for sharing sweets too, & toilet breaks at the art house :D I waved at the president too! OMT!!! He's so coolxzx. Haha sijia, stella & I chiong-ed for the last train for both nights. So, not, funny, loh. But really really thank God we managed to catch them in time! :D & did I MET SHUYU!!!!!!!! :D I was super super happy to see her! :D :D :D

ROAD RUN TMRW!!! :D
VDAY WAS SUPER DUPER FUN TOO! Friends, thanks for the flowers, hand made gifts, chocs, letter, brownie etcetc, i feel so loved! APPRECIATED (:

Audrey chong,
time to stay strong,
big girls don't cry.

Saturday, February 09, 2008,8:38 AM

Sissy, you're my forever friend! :D

Sometimes I feel so comforted to know that I've chongkahyan as my sister, (not biological) but yeah, thank God!!! (: LOVE YOU.

Thursday, February 07, 2008,6:21 AM

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR ! :D

The cell (: Had reunion dinner at chuanlian's house! Was FUNNNN :D So glad I could make it you know & I felt really really bad making Kwai wait for me for almost an hour, thanks to the horrible jam from bukit timah to hougang, was seriously annoying especially when this guy keeps lying on your shoulder D: Gift exchange was fun I must say & I LOVE MY GIFT, facial mask! Hahaha it's rachel's! Yayyy. Then halfway, everyone was speaking in funny languages & it was very funny, cause everyone sounded cuckoo! Got home really late but thank God dad could pick me up at yck.

Photos taken on new year eve with my fellow S24 mates! :D Seeing them makes me very very happyyy :D & high!! i miss them so. But it's okay, i do see them around in sch! :D Anyway, I can't believe it's my very last year spending cny eve in a school based setting, I mean, next year, life is going to be so so sooooo different. Ah, me don't wanna grow up! CO performance this morning & I still love long teng, though I prefer to play it in stnicks (Stella & I get very high & crazy over this song) but njco rocks too! Totally (: I will upload the photo taken with ngjoonhong soon, haha WEINING!! It's for you to admire! ;) Sijia was pro today, now I know why many juniors like her so muchhh, she just has that xfactor when she conducts! Haha & jason was cool too! I think wushu was nicee!!! So.. cny celebration was nevertheless, fun! At least I really enjoyed myself. Seeing miss ang & mr tiew made my day too!

FOURTRUTH, orange bowl, ice tea, in stnicks. Some people left already by the time we headed back. Anyway, it was quite funny talking about some stuffs. Met dawnybaby too, hahaha I tell you, I seriously took super long to realised she was walking towards my direction! HAHA, sexyyy ehhhh! Valtan is still so cute! Haha, luochen's really changed a lot. Jenyun & Xinlin are still nice :D Xinlin was funny when she couldn't remember who Sam was. Lol :D Winnie & Pala are still mongsters! :D Jieying!!! I didn't even get to see you! Minghwei! So glad you called from the airport! Yingshi! Thanks for organising, even though the turnout was, mhmm, pathetic!

Then we went to amk hub &!!!! We met jean, althea, sohteng & cheryl :D Had lunch together & I had my ice milk tea again!!! :D THIRD DAY IN A ROW ALRDY! Ask my twin! She knows how much I LOVEEEEE ice milk tea from MOS ((((((((: Shiokkkkk can! & Jipeng ah, please don't be emo!!! SMILE PLEASE :D Heard loads about you from jean & sohteng. Then jean was about to whack pala about martin.. Haha, my very high classmates. Okayyy.. ntuc was really crowded then, so winnie & pala didn't managed to get their stuffs. The OSIM incident was funny & I can't believe gracechan don't know who heather mo is!!!! GO CHECK YEARBOOK, 4LOYALTY 2006, Mrs Seah's class! Tian ah. Met Nina lee after her training to get my girl show, THANKYOUUU! Last min shopping with my family after that & reunion dinner was superb!!! :D ME LOVE STEAMBOAT!!!!!

Today's cny! :D I'm dead beat right now, really. I had a blast!!! I love my family!!! If anything ever happens to me, (CHOY CHOY CHOY! touch wood) please take care of my family! I cannot pungseh them! I'm madly in love with my grandma's cooking & my cousins crap & my uncle (whom I consider my kor kor)'s funny stories & he keeps reminding me of my embarrassing childhood days, how much I used to cry & play with him, my aunt's amusing stories, gambling with my bro & relatives using peanuts, mahjong tiles smashing against each other (oldies playing), chit chat aka catching up sessions with one another & most importantly, my ang paos! Anyway, my idol's sms today made my day (: Xiaobra loves her rocking idol! Photos up next time, they're with my aunt! So.. chu yi was GREATTT!! Tmrw will be fun too! HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!

Saturday, February 02, 2008,7:21 AM

Long days, long nights.

YO (:

#Chingay this mrng, couldn't drag myself out of bed, even my alarm clock failed me, or rather, i failed my alarm clock, thankfully sijia msged me & i shot out of bed. Met stella (: Was on time & met shu jean at rj, surprising!! I shld have wore nj uniform today. Anyway stella & i ps-ed our group agn & happily sat at cc5, while she kept staring at her nan ren, in case they went off elsewhere. Ohmytian the worse thing is i got the guy from the boxing ring as my sector ic i think, which is totally funny but not cool can. He's horrible. Luckily jasmine was really nice, she actually rmbed me even though i met her a month ago and said less than 5sentences to her. Okay, so my group is fine, at least i know someone, yay:D The bad thing is, my gic lost my photo can, not his fault lah, i'm just suayyy yes.

# Shoppingggg today downtown with sissythetoot & we walked till we almost died. Esp when we were trying on shoes, it was damn chaotic, hahaha, i'm still super amazed how we managed to try on those shoes when the shop was like super crowded. Tried on so many similar stuffs & camwhore, duh (: Kahyan walked ard mango's changing room as if it was her home, hahaha, which was really funny.. :D Thanks sis, for going shopping with me! Shall go get more stuffs after cny k! Went shopping with sijia too on friday, thanks twin! :D At least i'm almost done with cny shopping, i really hate the crowd.

# Did i mention PE has been okayyy this week? Netball & Station games aren't that bad afterall! :D Just that my stupid thighs are hurting quite badly now. But winnielim is such a funny teacher!!!! :D & so nice to bluff & bully!!!!!

# HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DAWNY BABY! I msged dawn & chat with her quite a bit, ahhhh i miss my silly juniors!!!!!!! Really really. & I can't wait for fiesta. Msged winnie soh that day too & I miss her so much can!!! Saw se sheng today at rj & ahhhh I miss her too plus all the scholars plus wenxi (xiwen, haha), & minghwei, where were you today!!! Shuming's msg on friday made me miss fourtruth so muchhhh. I can't wait to see you guys on wed, class reunion lunch :D Yeah.